the-mind-is-a-parachute asked: I am often bi-polar in nature when it comes to self-esteem, and from reading your answers to other questions I have gathered that it's because I'm unsure of who I truly am. How does one begin the process of discerning their true disposition from the lies they tell themselves, and how would one refine their meditation to focus on self-exploration? Namasté. :)
It is good to hear that you have found this insight into your confusion. Knowing who you truly are means connecting with your primary feeling of being alive, of existence. It is not an intellectual endeavor.
Anything you tell yourself is a fiction. This is apparent by the simple fact that it’s a voice in your head. We have a habit of assuming that voice is who we are. Don’t look to the mind for truth. All it can do is make clear what is untrue, unreal, not you.
You are the Real. And nothing can make the Real more real. Rather than a journey of transformation, the spiritual path is more like a circuitous journey of self-discovery. It can seem like a long route but the reality is that you are already That which you are seeking.
Meditation doesn’t need refining. Sit down, close the eyes, and be. If thoughts come, witness. If feelings are there, witness. That is all.
I would also recommend the book The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.